One Whole Year

So today CFNI finally called me to tell me that I'm accepted. I've been waiting for weeks and had assumed it wasn't happening. Plus I found out that I can't defer my loan payments because CFNI isn't an accredited university. So I would have to somehow go to school full time, work full time, pay for tuition, food, rent, gas, tithe, and insurance, while also making 4 or 5 loan payments. Ya, not gonna work.

So I thought maybe I could just take one class at TCC, it's cheap and I can afford that (somewhat) and I will still be doing SOMETHING with my life, ya know?

But God told me today what He wants me to do. And it's got me excited. Uber excited.

He told me to devote one year to Him. One whole year, where I let go of my time, my friendships, my possessions. "Give Me one year" He said, "and the debt will be gone. I will provide for you, if you just let Me."

One year. One year of working hard to pull in that extra little bit of money. One year of sacrificing the luxuries and non-necessities. One year of sack lunches, of no days off, and of no movies. One year of no boyfriends.

One year. And it will all be gone.

This time next year, I'm going to be free! $25,000 is going to be paid! And not only that, not only am I going to make $25,000 (which in and of itself is a miracle) but I'm going to make even MORE than that. God's going to overflow His blessings on me, so that I can tithe, so that I can save, so that I have money for gas...and not only THAT. He's not only going to take care of me...He's going to bless me so that I can bless others in the process!

I dunno if you're picking up on this...but this is HUGE. Monumental. Stupendous.

My Bride,
There are many things I have to offer you as your eternal Husband. I offer you everlasting life, I give you anytime access to Me. I give you unspeakable joy, an abundant life, and an eternal home. As My Bride, your prayers reach the heavens and people's lives are changed forever because I hear your every word whispered to Me. But there is more, My Beloved. I command My angels to stand guard over you. There are many things you have been spared of without you knowing. Just be blessed in knowing I have covered you wherever you have gone, and I will continue to cover you until you are finally home with Me once and for always.
Love,
Your Prince and Sole Provider

"Praise the Lord, you angels, you mighty ones who carry out His plans, listening for each of His commands. Yes, praise the Lord, you armies of angels who serve Him and do His will!"
- Psalm 103:20-21

God has had His hand over me my entire life...there are no worries with Him in control! If His angels have been protecting me up until this point, how much MORE will they surround me when I'm completely in obedience to Him!

"Strive to re-express a truth of God to yourself clearly and understandably, and God will use that same explanation when you share it with someone else. But you must be willing to go through God's winepress where the grapes are crushed. You must struggle, experiment, and rehearse your words to express God's truth clrearly. Then the time will come when that very expression will become God's wine of strength to someone else. But if you are not diligent and say "I'm not going to study and struggle to express this truth in my own words; I'll just borrow my words from someone else," then the words will be of no value to you or to others."
- Oswald Chambers

Get rid of all the flack, all the crap that keeps God from pressing down on you. Oh God, flatten me with Yourself! Don't hold back, I trust You to know exactly how much I can take!

"Your position is not really yours until you make it your own through suffering and study."
- Oswald Chambers

Can you imagine what God will teach me in the course of one year if I devote myself to Him? If I use all my spare time to delve into the Word, to flourish underneath His tutelage? "HE WON'T RELENT UNTIL HE HAS IT ALL".

"Be diligint to present yourself approved to God, a worker who does not need to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth."
- 2 Timothy 2:15

Obedience is the biggest aphrodisiac, I swear it is. I am bursting at the seams right now, so excited to obey and so IN LOVE that I want to scream, dance, sing praises, hug someone!

COME BE THE FIRE INSIDE OF ME, COME BE THE FLAME UPON MY HEART, COME BE THE FIRE INSIDE OF ME, UNTIL YOU AND I ARE ONE

The exciting part isn't that the debt is going to be gone....that's just a visual marker of God's blessing on me. The exciting part is how close we are going to become. The exciting part is that after this year, He will REALLY be able to use me! After this obedience, He'll know I'll be obedient in whatever He asks of me, wherever He sends me... I will finally be able to do what He's planned for me to do! He will send me to whatever country needs His love the most and after this year of falling in love with Him, I'll REALLY be able to love on other people.

This is huge. I don't think you understand just how huge.