I Want To Be Remembered

I want to be remembered as a woman who is sold out for Christ. I want to be remembered as a woman who is more in love with God than with any man, woman, child, or possession. I want to be remembered as a woman who spends the first and last hour of every day communing with her Saviour. I want to be remembered as a woman who loses herself in God’s presence when she worships. I want to be remembered as a woman who points at all times back to Christ in everything she does and in her manner of life.

I want to be remembered as a woman who loves unconditionally, who never counts someone’s sins against them. I want to be remembered as a woman who had high standards and wouldn’t change those for anyone. I want to be remembered as a woman who had higher priorities than just her own wants and desires. I want to be remembered as a woman who worked hard, kept a routine, and was respectable. I want to be remembered as a woman who was matured and wise

I want to be remembered as a woman who didn’t forget a single family member. I want to be remembered as a woman who emailed correspondence with her cousins, called her grandma regularly, took her sisters to pedicures, had coffee dates with her mom, and gave random, meaningful gifts to all her family. I want to be remembered as a woman who brought in people not biologically related into her family and treated them with as much respect, honor, and love as she did to her own children and family. I want to be remembered as a woman who never shouted or screamed or hit her children, as a woman who kept herself controlled and would instead talk to her children about the reason they would be punished. I want to be remembered as a woman who was honest about my own shortcomings and who used her own experiences to teach her children and to counsel her family members away from making the same mistakes she did. I want to be remembered as a woman who my children were not afraid to come to when they did something wrong or found themselves in a tough situation. I want to be remembered as a woman whose relationship with Christ was so obvious and relevant to her every day life that it trickled down to the rest of her family.

I want to be remembered as a woman who never used foul language. I want to be remembered as a woman who never made fun of another person or gossiped or set out to ruin someone else. I want to be remembered as a woman who worked hard and honestly. I want to be remembered as a woman who would take the blame from someone else. I want to be remembered as a woman who was a peacemaker. I want to be remembered as a woman who learned quickly and didn’t make the same mistake twice.

I want to be remembered as a woman who greeted newcomers warmly and immediately set aside everything else to get to know them. I want to be remembered as a woman who gave without thought as much as she could to everyone who had need. I want to be remembered as a woman who could be trusted to take care of a family or individual going through a tough time. I want to be remembered as a woman who the church knew they could call to volunteer wherever needed. I want to be remembered as a woman who knew everyone in the church and made sure to greet them all by name and keep in contact with them.

I want to be remembered as a woman who gave her tithe every week.I want to be remembered as a woman who gave to missions and other church functions as much as she could. I want to be remembered as a woman who gave to individuals as she learned of their need. I want to be remembered as a woman who blessed financially where she could, without ever revealing who she was. I want to be remembered as a woman who paid her bills every month and never borrowed a cent from anyone or any institution. I want to be remembered as a woman who lived simply, without indulging in material possession she didn’t need such as fancy clothes, hair highlights, big screen tv, flashy car, expensive jewelry, etc. I want to be remembered as a woman who invested her money in small businesses and entrepreneurs, a woman who believed in people trying to get off the ground. I want to be remembered as a woman who never considered her money her own.

I want to be remembered as a woman who ate more vegetables and fruit than she did meat. I want to be remembered as a woman who did everything in moderation. I want to be remembered as a woman who went to pilates classes and had “walking” dates with people and played soccer or ultimate Frisbee or football with her friends, family, and children. I want to be remembered as a woman who was not Hercules but could do manual labor and was not afraid to sweat, burn, or pull a muscle. I want to be remembered as a woman who did not use the fact that she was a woman to get out of doing something physically straining. I want to be remembered as a woman who didn’t go to the doctor unless her guts were spilling out her stomach…and then only after she had been prayed over. I want to be remembered as a woman who wanted to have her children at home in a safe and comfortable and natural environment instead of in a hospital full of drugs and unfamiliar people and ugly rooms. I want to be remembered as a woman who followed an evening and morning routine in order to have the best sleep possible.

I want to be remembered as a woman who never stopped reading or studying. I want to be remembered as a woman who would learn any language in order to talk with and minister to whoever came into contact with her. I want to be remembered as a woman who enjoyed intellectual discussions about religion, the Bible, politics, literature, and philosophy. I want to be remembered as a woman who had enough degrees to start her own university. I want to be remembered as a woman who had a wide array of knowledge that she used to minister to and teach people without ever seeming like an intellectual superior. I want to be remembered as a woman who loved music and was constantly humming, singing quietly, or loudly busting out tunes, as a woman who learned to play piano, guitar, cello, and whatever instrument she could get her hands on enough to be able to play simple songs. I want to be remembered as a woman who had more books in her house than she had room for. I want to be remembered as a woman who didn’t think any field of study was too boring to not look in to at least a little bit (such as anatomy, calculus, astronomy, geology, ancient history, etc). I want to be remembered as a woman who wrote extensively on as many topics as she studied, maybe even more. I want to be remembered as a woman who was private but also completely open to whoever wanted to hear her thoughts on any given subject or her advice. I want to be remembered as a woman who wrote a book that benefited and enhanced and freed several million people.

I want to be remembered as a woman who everyone in the neighborhood knew and looked to for help, advice, or friendship. I want to be remembered as a woman who made cookies for each new neighbor. I want to be remembered as a woman who would do random acts of kindness such as mow a lawn, babysit kids for a date night, or invite neighbors over for dinner. I want to be remembered as a woman who respected and honored her police force and fire fighters, who was always cheerful and helpful to anyone she came in contact with, and who built personal. relationships with the girl who checked her out at WalMart, the elderly woman at the library, and the young man who worked at her favorite coffee shop. I want to be remembered as a woman who almost always had people over for dinner every night and who enjoyed cooking for a large group of people. I want to be remembered as a woman who loved the holidays and decorated the house for each one. I want to be remembered as a woman who enjoyed small intimate gatherings just as much as large ones, who loved to have a few girl friends over for just some wine and dessert but who also loved to have families over for barbecues.

I want to be remembered as a woman whose favorite thing to do to relax was to sit on her porch/patio/balcony, surrounded by beautiful trees and flowers and a gorgeous view, to sip her tea and snack on fruit and read a book or talk with God or pray or read the Bible. I want to be remembered as a woman who loved to bake and cook and who was constantly trying out new recipes and giving away samples of it to whoever happened to be in her house. I want to be remembered as a woman who would go to a cottage, hotel, wherever for a weekend to be alone with God a few times a year. I want to be remembered as a woman who found her greatest rest in the arms of her Husband. I want to be remembered as a woman who found casual company as relaxing and satisfying as being alone and who would never turn someone away from herself in order to be alone.

I want to be remembered. I want to leave in impact. I want to make a difference.